Why I won't pursue witchcraft now

Yo, folks. Something I plan on talking about on my YouTube channel is my journey as trans. This is a given, sorta. This includes my history as an individual raised in Islam, specifically living as a girl raised in Islam. 

Anyway, eventually, I'll talk about my near-lifelong interest in witchcraft. At the moment, I'll just talk about the interest in it now.

I've done a wee bit more "research" into witchcraft and I have to say, I'm interested more than ever before. Thing is, my mental state is such that I can't focus on learning anything, let alone something as complex and worthy of attention like witchcraft. 😟

I adore witchcraft. I admit, I don't quite know what my path would be. While I do have an interest in pagan religions, religion isn't for me. In all honesty, I've kind of...distanced myself from religion since Islam messed me up so badly—or, rather, the way I was raised as a Muslim messed me up so badly.

I do know I am severely attracted to the ocean. I wonder if there was some way I could follow a path connected to it. That would put me at such peace, I cannot begin to explain... 😊

I know, I know. A "sea witch". That has a cool ring to it...but I wonder if such a thing is even possible?? 😶

To reiterate, I'm not at a healthy place in my life where I can devote myself to witchcraft practice. I wish with all my being that I could start now, but all it would do would put so much pressure on me and I'd probably feel like even more of a failure if I didn't manage to do the things I wanted to do when I wanted to get it done.

It's enough like that now as it is...

The best I can do right now is watch videos about witchcraft, real witchcraft, and keep myself informed while also entertaining my tiny brain. 🧠 My poor, tiny brain...

While on the topic of witchcraft...

The witchcraft trend

As someone who admires and truly respects witchcraft, I cannot fucking stand the obsession and trend that (mostly) girls have today with "witchy" things. Maybe this is an unpopular opinion, but I don't fucking care. 

I'll be the first to admit that I love buying witch-related things such as items with moons and crescents on them—and even wide-brimmed hats! "Witchy hats". I do like me a pointed hat...but I want to know the meaning of them before I wear them.

You know. Like a respectful person. 🤨

But these were things I wanted since I was a kid but were never so easily available to me, not because it's fucking trendy. It's more like a dream come true. So what I do for myself is take advantage of the situation before the trend goes away or some fucking shit like that. 🙄

At the end of the day, there's nothing I can do to prevent these people from calling themselves legit witches on their profiles and shit. Whatever. Do what you want.

Just...seriously?

Choices were made.

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